I’ve been learning a lot about faith in the past several weeks.
Maybe “learning” isn’t the best word, because in our information-oriented culture, we tend to associate things we learn with things we have. For example, once we “learn” something, then we “have” that thing or body of knowledge or skill indefinitely. To some extent this is true, especially in the case of matters of pure, objective knowledge like riding a bike, understanding math, knowing how to balance a checkbook, driving a car, etc. But in the world of ideas & relationships & behaviors it’s a bit different, isn’t it? I “know” how important it is to treat people I don’t like with respect, but sometimes I “forget.” I know it’s important to control my tongue, but sometimes I don’t want to. I know it’s wrong to cheat & lie but sometimes I find myself pushing the boundaries and justifying myself so that I can achieve my desired goal. I want to follow God’s ways and receive the blessings that He promises but sometimes I want to do what I want, when I want, more. I’m not alone in this.
We all suffer from lapses of faith. We get caught in cycles of selfishness & immaturity, most often resulting from the fears that lurk in our hearts that cause us to not believe God. Not to say that we “stop believing in” God, but that we stop “believing Him.” We sometimes find ourselves not believing that His way is best and that He’s the boss of us. We’re like petulant children sometimes, right? We want the benefits of knowing God without the responsibilities & disciplines they require. Often, that’s why our prayers stop at the ceiling…God says “no” because giving us what we want isn’t His end-game…relationship with us is.
“…You don’t have what you want because you don’t ask God for it. And even when you ask, you don’t get it because your motives are all wrong—you want only what will give you pleasure. You adulterers! Don’t you realize that friendship with the world makes you an enemy of God? I say it again: If you want to be a friend of the world, you make yourself an enemy of God. What do you think the Scriptures mean when they say that the spirit God has placed within us is filled with envy? But he gives us even more grace to stand against such evil desires. As the Scriptures say, ‘God opposes the proud but favors the humble.’ So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world. Let there be tears for what you have done. Let there be sorrow and deep grief. Let there be sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor. (James 4:2-10)
Faith is not a religious word, actually. It’s synonymous with trust, confidence, belief. It’s interesting how faith & belief seem like religious concepts, while trust & confidence seem like practical ones. It’s also interesting that we tend to differentiate between what we consider religious and practical…as if “matters of faith” and “practical matters” are completely different. It’s much easier to trust in something that one can see, touch, feel, smell, or hear….but placing absolute confidence in that which cannot be scientifically observed is something quite different. The problem is that we were not designed to be content inside the box of our 5 senses, we were created with eternity in our hearts and a constant gravity-pull toward meaning & purpose & destiny. It’s the God stuff in us, pulling & pushing us to discover who we really are, what the world is all about, what happens after we die, and Who’s really in charge of it all.
Faith, real true trusting faith, is like a lost compass in the forest of the post-modern world.
The wonderful thing about God, the real God, is that when we finally “come to our senses” and come to Him (or come back to Him), He runs to us and throws His arms around us and takes us where we cannot take ourselves! (Like the parable of the prodigal son…see Luke 15:11ff)
“But you must remain faithful to the things you have been taught. You know they are true, for you know you can trust those who taught you. You have been taught the holy Scriptures from childhood, and they have given you the wisdom to receive the salvation that comes by trusting in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives. It corrects us when we are wrong and teaches us to do what is right. God uses it to prepare and equip his people to do every good work.” (2 Timothy 3:14-17)
“For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins. Therefore, my brothers and sisters, make every effort to confirm your calling and election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble, and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.” (2 Peter 1:5-11)
2 replies on “Faith”
HI Shawn, thank you for writing, good stuff here. I'd just like to offer…is it ok to stop believing in God for us as infallible human beings? Sure there may be consequences, but in the daily grind of "what the hell is my life supposed to be about"????? Maybe even in the midst of pain and heartbreak caused by a faith community or a church, I think its pretty normal , and healthy to allow ourselves the space to question anything and everything. That doesnt mean it will get us anywhere.!!
But giving oneself permission to question, ponder, wonder, wander….is healthy in my view.As the loving God that He truly is, He intends and hopes that I will find my way back, like the prodigal…..but not all who wander are lost.
"The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them" Thomas Merton
And conversely, this quote also by Thomas Merton is powerful as well.
"The most dangerous man in the world is the contemplative who is guided by nobody. He trusts his own visions. He obeys the attractions of an interior voice but will not listen to other men. He identifies the will of God with anything that makes him feel, within his own heart, a big, warm, sweet interior glow. The sweeter and the warmer the feeling is, the more he is convinced of his own infallibility."
Thanks Shawn for this forum to write your soul's ponderings.
Obscure, I'm really glad you asked that question! Too often, those of us who ask the hard questions are put down & sidelined by those who would like to preserve a faulty image of faith. Faith does not mean that we never question anything about God, it literally means to "be convinced." How can you be convinced about something you have never questioned or tested? Of COURSE we're supposed to ask questions and search for answers!
In scripture, there's no such thing as "blind faith." Yet sometimes when we struggle with doubt we are told by others to stop asking questions and just believe. But faith is like a muscle, it gets stronger through stress, stretch, fuel, and recovery. We should always be asking questions and searching for answers…the problem happens when we ask questions and then get dragged into negativity, skepticism, and bitterness…avoiding the answers that lead us to truth because it doesn't match-up with a belief or behavior we hold dear. In my opinion, this is the primary source of true unbelief…aka pride.
so, go ahead and ask the questions….but don't use it as an excuse to indulge the sinful nature or hold onto some lie of the world. Seek the truth and go where the truth leads you…He will be there.